Slimdude

Well tonight I come 2 u in better spirits. I went to normal PCM today and I was in pain but he took me seriously and ordered some more tests… also did new X-rays on my back and shoulders and ribs and all… and they came back “NEG” for any new breakerage.

 So I don’t know… there are no answers as far as what is causing my immediate pain. I do know that I increased the amount of time that I go between taking my pain killers. It was 4 hours but now I’ve got it on five and I may go for six soon.

I am still on leave and I have a whole series of tests to complete between my regular doc on base and the SPecialist. Like I’ve said before, their BEST GUESS so far is CUSHINGS SYNDROME. But the final diagnosis is pending further testing.

Today I probably got up about ten times in all and that includes walks to the bathroom and around the Medical facility while we were there. I use my walker but I try not to lean on it as much as possible. And I think, even though I feel very weak in my back and legs, it IS helping. I am getting stronger and stronger, I think. I tell myself that yesterday’s ER visit will be my lowest point and I will NOT ever let myself be unable to move or stand like that.

They put me on new BP meds and those I start tomorrow.

First of all, thanks to my wife. She has been an absolute angel during all this. She knows I can only do so much so she still makes my meals and even today she had to help me take a bath. The upside is, well… having your spouse rub you down with soap? Hey that sounds great! except then you kind of consider what the circumstances are, you know, having an extremely limited range of motion and stamina, and the romance of it sort of flies out the window.

Then let me thank all you BuddySlimmers. Your comments mean so much to me and I know even the ones of you that come by but don’t leave any comments… I know you care, too!

Okay well as for fitness and weight=loss : I have not stepped on a scale in quite a while now but I am almost positive I’ve met my goal. But the funny part is, I don’t look anything like I used to look at 140. I have this big round face and a big round belly but meanwhile my arms and legs are stick thin.Like seriously they are old man limbs. I know that this is also related to the CS, but it doesn’t make it any more comforting. I lost weight all right, in muscle mass and tone.

But that’s okay. I’m gonna build back slowly. Walking around with walker. Then without walker. Then I’ll start walking more regularly, then the Gazelle, etc and before you know it I’ll be back to weight training, jogging, aerobics, and maybe even do that P90X program next year.

One last note for the night, Guilty Pleasure in watching Project Runway. I am not good at picking apart the fashions or anything but I always know what I like and what I hate.

My wife and I have developed this semi-nightly ritual of putting The Boy to bed, then watching some TV while we have a small snack, sometimes I have a fudgesicle or sometimes some Jell-O or a just a diet soda. And then I rub her feet with lotion.

So that is my life and over=all it is still grand. yes I am in pain and yes I am struggling with just walking but I still have it great overall. My wife and Cable TV and my son started talking so much more (for him) and it is so cute! I am so excited when he says something new!

“Cookies”, “Cupcake” and “Cartoon” are all brand new and he already says “dada” “Mama” “ball” “Nana” and “SpongeBob” which to be honest sounds more like “BobBob”

—Matt