Siren Call
Got home this morning and took some UniSom to get to bed. I slept from about 8am until about 2:30pm so that’s not too bad. My weight is stabalizing around 150-152 depending on when I weigh-in. I really think I’m going to break 150 by this weekend.
Oh but this morning I kept hearing the “siren’s call” to binge… at 10am I actually got up and poured out a bowl of cereal and then had a Hot Pocket going in the microwave… a “Lean Pocket” actually… and I could feel the usual frenzied urge inside my head and I knew it would never ever end at just those two things. So I poured the dry cereal back in the box and when the LP was done in the Microwave I just wrapped it up in aluminum foil and put it in the fridge. I drank a bottle of water and cracked open a Diet Rite and took a few sips on that… I calmed down and went back to bed.
A few hours later I was up again and the voices in my head (not literally, ya’ll) were telling me to eat that Lean Pocket and then work off the calories but I told myself, “No this is not about the calories, or the weight-loss… this is about ending this habit.” and again I went back to bed.
So I’m very happy with myself that I made it through yet another day and fought off a binge.
In other news…
Job is going well these days. The planes have been doing very very well. My snake won’t eat. He is still a baby and supposed to eat every week or so. I’m still trying…
My wife is sick and I bet I catch whatever she has.
My son is well. And tonite is The Biggest Loser on NBC.
—Matt
Matt,
you did well with the voices. You have a power!
Good luck with your weigh-in,
Tatiana
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh…
GREAT JOB on fighting the binging habit. I know this has been hard for you and I’ve seen you struggling with it. Good for you for never, EVER giving up on creating a healthier life for yourself.
Huggggggggggs,
Shan
Proud of you! Night eating is sooo tough. One of the hardest things I know to defeat. We are half asleep and the demons try to take over. Then come morning, we are so depressed because of this folly. Hang in there, slim dude. You can do it! Marge
I don’t know if you know the significance of what you just did….you OVERCAME the urge to binge and that’s HUGE!! I’ve been having trouble with that lately and it sucks!! HORRIBLY SO!! Glad one of us has some control.
Hope your DW feels better soon and that neither you or your DS catch whatever she has!!
Glad to hear the job is going well too Matt. Enjoy this time of peace and tranquility because God knows in this life, they seem to be few and far between. Like I said, I’m truly happy for you!!