Slimdude

Well, BSers… it has been a very good week for diet and exercise. I don’t know why, but something has “clicked” and I have not gone off the rails in any major way. The hardest part, honestly… is staying off the scale until SAT morning. Part of me wants that instant vindication that what I am doing is working. Remember I was 161 last week and I vowed to be 158 by SAT…

So Tuesday night I walked while watching The Biggest Loser and I am psyched about it’s return to TV. It’s so cool that there are THREE teams this year. Jillian leads this renegade-looking “black team”. That’s just awesome.

Then I did the Biggest Loser workout DVD. Work was absolutely killer on my back last night. I kept having to hook up AGE (Aerospace Ground Equipment) which is all these giant heavy hoses and electrical cables and stuff so that you can fix the jets. I was lit up in so much pain by the time I was supposed to go home at about 7am.

THEN my wife called and said our son was still sick and could I pick him up from DayCare and watch him until she got off work at noon. So here I am, in pain and exhausted and now I’ll have to get The Boy?? But I always tell myself “It could be worse” and I try and make the best of any situation… I mean, I’m lucky to have my little boy so I picked him up and my wife made a Doctor’s appt for him since he has been sick for about four days now. But at his appointment the Doc checked him over and said he seemed fine… no fever and he is eating and drinking normally. So that put us at ease I just wish he felt better in general.

So we layed down together at about 10:30am and tried to nap until Mommie got home @ Noon and then I took a Unisom and conked out until 7:30pm. Woke up and had breakfast (Oatmeal, fruit and coffee with sugar free creamer powder)… cleaned the kitchen, talked to the Wife who is having Work Issues… then I walked for 90 minutes while watching a movie. Just had my “lunch” which is two Boca Burger patties on whole wheat bread, some FF cheese and FF mayo and an apple.

I don’t know how or why but I have avoided all binges this week. I DID find myself up at 3pm with a major Snack-Attack urge, and I had pulled out a LeanPocket, a pack of crackers, and a SlimBear ice cream sandwich and I was intending on eating… even as I had a handful of Cheeze-Its in my hand. But after that first handful, about 15 maybe?? I told myself “No I will not do this! This must END!” because it would NOT have ended with what I mentioned above. I was eating out of habit and maybe stress relief and all NOT REAL HUNGER. I put everything back and drank some water and took a Diet Soda back to bed with me in case I still wanted something sweet but I promptly fell back asleep.

I’ve had these types of streaks before where I stopped bingeing and eating at night and all and then just sort of “relapsed” so part of my brain tells myself it is only a matter of time before I binge again. The negative self-talk says I can’t make this time any different than the 100s of times I have failed before.

But I can’t let myself believe that!  I MUST end this habit and so far so good this week…

I hope you all are having success as well.

—Matt