Archive for August 28th, 2007

I Am Struggling

Good Morning, Buddyslimmers.

You know, when I started this whole weight-loss adventure on BuddySlim, I told myself I would finally rid my body of this extra 20 pounds I have been carrying around for two years. I was fed up with tight-fitting uniforms, feeling less-than-myself, and a pudgy face and round belly.

I had already lost about ten pounds by exercising, eating better and eating a little less during the day. And then I had to admit that I have a bad habit with snacking at night. And I discovered that most major trainers and nutritionists, from Dr. Oz to Bob Greene, recommend you stop eating a few hours before bed.

I have tried very hard to initiate this rule but it is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Even last night I found myself eating graham crackers and pudding. And then of course, you figure… well… I could go for a bowl of cereal, too… and one thing leads to another until I just kind of go back to bed feeling overly full.

I have had a few “streaks” in the past where I was able to break the habit. Last fall was one of them. I actually got down below 150 at one point. But then… I don’t know… the habit came back again. So I know that unless I can break this habit once and for all, I will never ever achieve my dream weight of 140 and be able to maintain it. It simply will not happen. This is something I must do! This is my battle! This is my war!

I tell ya what…. I weighed in this AM at 161 pounds. And some of that is from what I ate last night. So… I will try really really super duper hard to do my exercise, eat right, and enforce the NO SNACK RULE after 6:30pm Today, Tomorrow and Thursday. Just focus on three days. And I’m willing to bet that by Friday morning I am below 160 again.

And then all I have to do is focus on Friday, Sat, Sun and Monday. Four more days. It’s Labor Day weekend and I bet I can focus on the people and events and not worry about food. I bet I can make really great healthy choices and by the time Tuesday rolls around and I step on the scale again I’ll be right on track at 157 or lower.

But dang this eating cut-off rule is hard. Oh well. Nobody ever said this was going to be easy. I kind of expected it would be. But it’s not. It’s really tough.

—Matt