A Very Active Day
Comments(1) It has been a really busy, active day. I’m originally writing this on Microsoft Word because my internet won’t work right. Damned Mediacom once again. This morning I was feeling pretty blue, I admit it. I barely wanted to face the day.
If you have never met me, you have no way of knowing that this is HIGHLY UNUSUAL for me. I am an extremely motivated and positive person. I usually love to jump out of bed at 4:30am, and on weekends “sleeping in” is usually 5 or 6 at the latest. I like to exercise every day and then get some breakfast and get on with my day.
But this morning… I was just feeling badly because of yet another binge the night before, and I was tired. But today I left a message in the forums about joining a weight-loss team and I hope that will help me motivate myself. Whoever’s team I am on, sorry I only have about 20 pounds to lose, I may not be much long-term help. But I also saw where someone may start a thread for “Maintenance” and that would be FANTASTIC because after I hit my Goal Weight it will be the holidays. Hard work to maintain around that season.
Well as soon as I got to work I started feeling much much better and the jobs I did end up with were good ones. Some antenna stuff and then “re-building” a jet. It was pretty active and some of the positions I was trying to turn my neck in really hurt.
Oh here is the Low-Down on that : I have something seriously wrong with several discs in my neck (according to an MRI) and it causes me to have neck pain, shoulder pain and upper back pain. Occasionally it will send numbness and tingliness down into my arms and hands and right leg. I take lots of Ibuprofin (Motrin and Advil) and a relaxer called Robaxin that doesn’t work all that great. It takes the edge off and it makes me feel kinda mellow but it’s no Lortab or Percoset if you know what I mean.
***Oh my gosh right now Primetime is doing a story on Adam Walsh. When I was a little boy that was big big news. If you don’t know, Adam was kidnapped and later found beheaded but his killer was never found. And John Walsh went on to found America’s Most Wanted. My mom used to talk about it all the time and use it as a warning to us to not wander off in malls or grocery stores… now as a Father… oh holy jesus if something ever happened to my darling boy I would lose my freaking mind. Seriously. ***
(Author’s Note: I originally finished this post from here on using WordPress and BuddySlim, but then when I tried to save it, the Internet was “out” again… GRRR!)
Well. Right now as I write this it is about 10pm at night and I am fighting the urge to go into the kitchen and eat. I want to make a marshmallow crème sandwich. But I know I don’t need it and I would never stop there anyway. I did peek at the scale today and it said “159.5”. So I’m hoping, if I stick to my diet and exercise plan, and if I just STOP STUFFING MY FACE at night, I will make my “Mini-Goal” of 155 by Sunday morning. I know, I know, I know… I will not just magically lose 8 pounds every week. But this first week, I think I can. And it helps to think maybe I’ll be helping out a “weight-loss team”.
So what else? Oh I see the Net is back up again. I’m still going to finish this in WORD and then Copy and Paste.
So work was fun and rewarding today. After work I got a haircut and bought some more diet soda and returned some things to the Library and got some videos for me and my son, like “101 Dalmations” and the animated “Robin Hood”. I also got some books on “Getting Things Done” and Home Buying. As well as Jorge Cruise’s “3 Hour Diet”. I’ve read it before but I really like it. It is how I’ve planned my meals for a long time now. It really works, by the way… if you don’t know… what I do is wake up and exercise and then I eat breakfast. 3 hours later I have a snack. 3 hours later is lunch. 3 hours pass and it’s snack time. 3 more hours and dinner. Now I try and stop eating after that because 3 hours after dinner is bedtime. But lately I have not had much success. But here I am tonight TRYING SO HARD to make new habits and break the old bad ones.
If I REALLY need to, I know I can have a diet soda, or some sugar free Jello or Sugar Free Popsicles… maybe celery… you know, really light and low-cal stuff. I’m not gonna get fat snacking on that stuff at midnight. It’s when I start downing sandwich after sandwich and cookies and crackers that problems start to occur.
Oh yes and today the Air Force released it’s promotion list to E-5, which for us is the first NCO rank of Staff Sgt. And one of my flight chiefs called me at home and told me I made it. I won’t officially put the rank on until next year, but still… I’m pretty psyched. It’s a promotion! Hooray! My best friend made it also. This was my first year testing for it (In March) and I thought I did horribly, but I guess I underestimated myself.
Also my son and I took a walk after dinner and put up “Missing Cat” posters.
My wife got home at 8pm and we chatted. Tried to fall asleep at 9pm but here I am at almost 10:30 now having cravings for sweets and fats. Telling myself that years and years of this habit is going to take patience to break.
You know, I think I’ll make some Chai Tea with Splenda and surf some other “SlimBlogs” as long as the Internet holds out…
—Matt
